getting started...

Laziness has been my companion for the past days. Hindi pa ako nakakatapos ng mga dapat tapusing projects, articles, take-home exams atbp. Last Monday, isinet ko na ang utak ko sa mga dapat gawin, I laid my grand plan for the week, made my to-do list for each day. Napansin ko ngayong araw that I haven't produced even one output. I started with planning and ended with planning, no actions. Ano na kayang magiging future ko nito?

Napansin ko na naubos lang oras ko kakatunganga. Daydreaming. Pero I'm glad na dahil sa daydreaming, nakapagreflect ako. I'm over it na talaga. Yan yata ang biggest achievement ko ngayong araw. At least, meron dba? Self-justification, hahaha

May natutunan ako ngayong araw, as the saying goes, action speaks louder than words. Dapat gawin ko na lang ang mga bagay na kailangang gawin, hindi pulos dada nang dada. Walang magagawa and salita. Anong silbi ng mga to-do list na ginawa ko kung hindi naman ito maisasakatuparan.

FOLLOW YOUR DREAM! Ngekzzz! Hindi pala, NASA DIYOS ANG AWA, NASA TAO ANG GAWA! Pwede na rin...

I'm over it. I may never have the love but at least I have the friendship.

I am monsterized by too many requirements and projects at hand. EVery subject has its own large share of deadlines. My to-do list is jampacked. I'm afraid that procastination strikes me at this time when all I needed is drive and motivation to finish these tasks. However, I know myself that I embrace the art of cramming my whole student life but this time I want to be positive somehow. I need TIME MANAGEMENT.

Here's the list: (Actually, I really don't know what I should prioritize..)

Educational Technology- probably, the most demanding of all. Powerpoints, rubrics, sample activities, unit plan template. To be submitted on Sunday.

Psychology of Exceptional Children-a late take-home Midterm examination

Educational Research-a quiz covering three chapters

Modern Trends-IEP and reaction papers to 15 articles on education

Kadunong-article on ACLC

Sigh.Sigh.Sigh.

bulletin...

Hay... I miss answering bullrtins from friendster. Since wala na akong friendster account, di na ako nakaka-answer. Kaya dito na lang sa blog na 'to.

Okay this is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS
... type what comes to your mind first
whenever you hear these 50 words.

1. Beer: San Mig Light, "Kabayo"

2. Food: Ice cream

3. Relationships: mmmm...

4. Your CRUSH: xia talaga...

5. Power Rangers: power ranger black

6. Life: is beautiful...

7. Death: freedom

8. School: Ateneo de Naga

9. The President: ala Marcos

10. Yummy : yummy ka dyan...

11. Cars: kahit ano, basta totoo

12. Movie: Lilo and Stitch

13. Halloween: awooooooo....

14. Sex: lust and love

15. Religion: Katoliko

16. Myspace: nakalimutan kong i-open

17. Fear: to die in an accident

18. Marriage: Single for Christ

19. Blondes: paris hilton..

20. SLIPPERS: bakya

21. SHOES: sira na nga eh

22. Asians: chinese, arabs, indians, filipinos

23: Pasttime: blog, text, internet

24. One night stands: ha?

25: Cell Phone: 3310

26: Smoke: quit muna ngayon.. palusog muna ng baga

27. Fantasy: wonderland

30: COLLEGE: soon to finish...

29: Highschool Life: nostalgia

30. Pajamas: mainit

31. Stars: wish

32. Fitness Center: gym

33. Alcohol: pass muna

34. The word love: risk

35. Friends: dakol man sinda

36. Money: a need

37. Heartache: pain

38. Time: time management

39. Divorce: wala pa ngang bill na naipapasa

40. Dogs: patay na sila lahat

41. UndiES: sa cabinet

42. Parents: parent na lang...

43. Babies: dami nyan sa hospital

44. Stripper: ...

45. Blogs: greenpinoy, kc concepcion, jessica zafra and my blog

46. News: china products

49. Weddings: wala pang announcement

50. kleenex: ano to singit, hehe

love sucks part 2...

Why can't I easily get rid of this feeling? I hope that as I wake up one morning, I have an amnesia so that I will not remember the pain of loving that person. Why can't I help falling in love with that person? I always found myself coming back to be near, to talk, and even just have a glimpse of the person. How I wish my head controls what my heart feels at this moment. My heart always says that I continue to care but my mind speaks this ain't right and stop.

Love is a risk, as they say, but I'm afraid that I am risking too much. What happened after all of this, pain, tears, regrets? In what angle I view this, I am still the loser. Yes, I am happy whenever we are together, but after that, I am still crying inside because I know this would not last long.

What I realized after all is that pain always comes next to happiness. That's why sometimes I don't want to be happy. Laughters are just a shadow of tears. However, I also believe that a day will come that I would be crying because of joy, of happiness and of love.

I am empty after all.

love sucks...

I keep on questioning myself these past days. I am so distracted and overly confused. There are the Whys and Hows that keep on bothering me, made me keep on thinking on how should I face these inner struggles that hound me for so long.

I thought this will not last for long but here I am in the middle of a dilemma that I myself choose. I am torn between holding on to a person which will never ever be mine and letting go of this feeling to stop me from this grand illusion. However, whatever I choose, I'm certain that I would be hurt. Where should I go then?

I barely knew the person but I don't know why is it that I am so attached like this. Is this only attachment or I am just overwhelmed by the company, the friendship that the person shows? Last Saturday, I decided to end all this and buried it in the deepest portion of my heart. I said to myself that this is sure patheticness and self-torture. I don't want pain anymore. I'm ready for a new day even without entertaining the feeling and make me believe that happiness will just come along.

The time I am set for a new beat, that is when circumstances bring us closer.It seems that the stars are conspiring against me. Is love testing me? How could I move forward when situations drew me nearer to that person? This ain't right, of course. It's just bring me more pain and I feel in a cell self-torturing myself.These days should be over at the soonest time.

texts to live by...

Here are text messages which are somehow "corny" but if one read between the lines, they speak the beauty of human existence, lessons learned and oneself...

from edmond:
"it's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to just stare at the line for the rest of ur lyf..." -- rules from patintero

from allen:
d muscles of r hands r mde voluntary so dat we cn control it by will.. at an early age, wer taught hw 2 "close-open" so dat we'l learn 2 "hold-on & let go"

from aisah:
n lyf, dr r tyms dt u hv 2 face tuf dcsions, eider u mke 8 or break 8.. bt do rmmber, wtevr way u go, der r no wrong dcsions n lyf, 8s up 2 u 2 mke 8 ryt...

from patricia:
der wil b days wen u get home frm a party & 4get wat d fun was about.
or hav a very long, intimate conversation..yet fil der r still words left unspoken..
or embrace ur special some1.. yet never have the strength to say u care so much..
life tells us dat happiness is never absolute..
so while it's still there, seize the moment..

from mafe:
think about this:
"anyone can make you happy by doing something special, but only someone special can make you happy without doing anything.."

from reena:
f u dont go after wat u want, ul nvr hav it,
f u dont ask, d answr is alwys no,
f u dont step 4wrd, ur alwys n d sme plce,

try risks..for lyf goes on!!

my ACP: Laundry 101

Wala ngayong pasok dahil sa ACP or Alternative Class Program. Pipili ang mga estudyante ng kanilang papasukang activity, merong rappeling, baking, modelling seminar, a day in a prison, bikol literature at kung anu-ano pa. Wala akong ACP ngayong semester dahil hindi ako nakapa-register dahil siksikan ng pumunta ako sa Xavier noong Tuesday at wala namang nagre-require na teacher na magpapapasa ng reflection paper. Kapalit kasi ng certificate ay attendance sa mga subjects na masasagasaan ng ACP.

Natatandaan ko dalawang beses na napostponed ang napili kong ACP dahil hindi dumating ang speaker. About Catholic faith yata yung isa at ang isa hindi ko na maalala. Tuwing magpo-post na ng mga activities eh talagang box-office palagi ang topic na Love, Sex and Marriage. Obvious ba? Hehehe.

Kaya imbes na mag-ACP, sa laundry area na lang ang bagsak ko. Mission: maglaba ng labada na two weeks nang nakatambak. Umulan pa ang hanep! Bwisit talaga! Di tuloy natuyo kaagad. Grrr....

p.s.

Happy Birthday ALLen!!!! Nxt week na lang ang regalo promise....

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I never expected this message on my yahoomail this morning, it's from Yabang Pinoy. I thought they would not reply on the message I sent them. Now, I can have that Yabang Pinoy band, maybe as soon as I received my allowance.

usapang bagyo...

Today is declared as holiday in memorial of Ninoy Aquino's assassination. Hay, wala na naman pasok, ano ba yan, palagi na lang walang pasok, onli in the philippines ika nga. Nung elementary at high school pa ako, ito talaga ang mga inaabangang announcement ko, walang pasok dahil sa holiday o kaya bagyo. Lagi ko noon inaantay ang weather report ng the late Ernie Baron sa Tv Patrol, kung anong signal na ang Bicol. Kasi naman mag-signal no. 1 lang yan, eh wala ng pasok pag elementary at no. 2 pag high school. Pero pag college na kahit pa bahang-baha na ang Ateneo at ang Ateneo Avenue o nag-uumapaw na ang canal sa labas, tuloy pa rin ang pasok hanggat hindi signal no.3. I miss the stormy days, hehehe.

Ewan ko ba kung bakit gustong-gusto ko kapag may bagyo. Ang lamig kasi at ang sarap humiga at matulog habang yakap-yakap ang mga unan at balot na balot ng dobleng jacket. Ang ganda pa ng tanawin sa labas ng bahay, mga nagsasayawang mga puno at bahay! Minsan noong bagyong Loleng, nagtry akong magbukas ng bintana at ayun, isang lumilipad na yero ang dumaan sa harapan ko, bubong pala ng kapitbahay namin. Gusto ko rin mamasyal pakatapos ng bagyo at tingnan ang mga nasira nito, parang mayor na nagsu-survey sa kanyang nasasakupan. Bibilangin ang mga punong nagsitumba at mga bahay na nawalan ng dingding at bubong. Gusto rin ngang maligo sa ulan kaso di pwede.

Noong first semester ko sa Xavier Dorm, I experienced ang bagyo na wala sa bahay. Natulog kami sa may common area bitbit ang kanya-kanyang foam at unan, magkakatabi at puno ng istoryang nakakatawa. Nanonood lang kami sa bintana habang unti-unti na palang sinisira ang aming bakuran, ang Ateneo de Naga. Ang tunog pa ng hangin ay parang mga multong hinhampas sa mga puno, nakakatakot, parang mga nagmamakaawang mga kaluluwa. Pagkatapos ng bagyo, ayun, parang isang basang sisiw ang university. Sa laundry area, bagsak lahat ng mga sinampay. Sa labas, ang dumi dahil sa mga putol na sanga ng mga kahoy. Ang ganda rin noon dahil lahat naglinis hanggang hapon. Lahat tumulong sa paghakot ng basura, paglinis sa University Church at buong paligid ng Ateneo.

Nang sumunod na semester, mas malala pang bagyo ang dumating, si Reming. Mas grabe pa ang damage sa Ateneo, basag ang salamin sa library at Arrupe Retreat Center, mga bintana ng University Church na lahat stained glass, portion ng Madrigal building at marami pang iba. Mga 5 million or more yata ang kabuuang damage. It takes month for Ateneo to recover. Pero ngayon ayos na parang walang bakas ng Reming.

Ang maganda sa mga pangyayaring ganito, narerealize natin na kahit malayo na ang narating natin bilang tao o gaano man ang development na naattain natin sa panahon ngayon, mahina pa rin tayo. Nature is stronger than man. Another is na kahit gaano man kalakas ang mga bagyo, natututo tayong bumangon at magsimula uli. Siguro ang mga bagyo ay paalala sa atin na may mas makapangyarihan pa sa atin. Paalala rin ito na ang kahit anong unos ay malalagpasan. Di ba magandang tingnan ang araw pakatapos ng bagyo dahil mas lalo nating naa-apreciate ang sinag nito.

what the heck..

I thought everything would be fine now, I had finished my Midterms and I think the exams are quite passing but on Theories of Learning Disabilities, I want to scream. Not that I didn't review for the exam but this is my worst exam ever this semester. I didn't finish the exam on time and worse I missed two items which is worth 10 points each! I wanted to cry after I passed my paper. I thought I would get an A this semester but the highest possible for the subject is only B. Goodbye DL!

LESSON: Time Management

high school musical 2...

Wow! High School Musical is finally back. It's a brand new season for the Disney Channel's teen show, set in a golf country club to show the heat of the summer with the same cast but more adventures and of course the Gabriella-Troy-Sharpay triangle.
It will premiere this August 17 but can't watch it on tv, maybe youtube will do. I just downloaded the new soundtracks of High School Musical 2 this morning after breakfast, "What Time Is It?" and "You Are the Music in Me". The new songs are as good as the songs in the previous season.

imeem

pauline tanchuico (permalink)
Posted 15 hours ago.
naku!!grabe ung kaleidoscope world ng final 12.... grabe... ganda nun... graduation song namin un!!! muxtah na OLD CLAZMATES???

--Got this comment on my playlist at imeem.com. First time kaya may nag-comment sa playlist ko, ang saya. Akalaing mong graduation song pala nila ang Kaleidoscope World, eh, one of my favorite song ko to. Ganda siguro ng graduation nila,mmmm. Kala niya siguro I'm a batchmate of her. Anyway, salamat sa comment.

midterms pa rin...

I have two major examinations to go, Theories of Learning Disabilities and the essay-dominated Teaching Strategies in Social Studies. I am not over with this Midterm hell.

sign language

I just had my Sign Language seminar at the Naga City SPED Center this Saturday morning. It was my first to attend such training. Trainings are conducted every Sunday morning and are mainly attended by students form Ateneo de Naga and parents. It was such a fun to learn those signs. However, since I was late by two sessions, I find difficulty in the signs of pronouns and other basic sentence parts. Signing in a full sentence is also hard. One has to sign each word.

This is just the beginning and I have more to learn. I am not even in the halfway. So many signs to learn and memorize. I just have to practice often so regression won't happen. Looking forward next session.

entertainment live!

This is my second time to watch Entertainment Live!, a showbiz-oriented show on ABS-CBN, hosted by Big Brother's girls, Toni, Mariel and Bianca. It is a good show and not much on chismisan and scandals. They also have live performances of artista. Every Saturday it presents the top ten showbiz issues and features. Ang number one ngayon ay about Angel Locsin's arrival in the country and the contract signing with the network. What I like about the show are the hosts. They are young and the three of them host well. This Saturday's episode featured Aga Muhlach, the Bodie-Gee Ann-Mickey loveteam, Mariel's interview with Zanjoe, the new movie of Bea and John Lloyd and of course the first-ever interview of Angel Locsin just right after the she signed the contract. Angel Locsin is now a certified Kapamilya! Can't wait to see her in The Buzz tomorrow.

trying hard to be insomniac..

The clock is set at 3:55 am. What?! I am still awake in this wee hour. I should be resting and hugging my pillow tight. I am facing the monitor with my eyes want to surrender and my legs are almost numb. The music in the Windows player keep me alive and make my neurons work. Mabuti na lang at natulog ako kaninang umaga kundi collapse ang abot ko nito. I'm all alone in the common area. They are all sleeping. All is calm but not bright. yawn, yawn, yawn. My stomach is aching beacuse of the electric fan, I want to close my eyes but I should not. I'm not yet finished with my brother's project. I just take a break.

pagkamoot (daw)...

Love is in the air...

I see them everywhere and it's nice to see couples having their intimate closeness with all the holding of hands, sharing the same umbrella and walking in the rain, staring at each other's eyes. Aren't they romantic? It's is also good to see two persons in the "developing stage", the "getting-to-know-each-other" part. How they giggle when the other is around, the "kilig" factor as we call it.

One of my dormmates confessed to me that he has a "liking" for someone in the Ladies' Dorm. I will not mention their names for confidentiality, hehehe. I thought before that it was an ordinary friendship developed between the two of them, but after that talk with him, it made me realize how Cupid's arrow can struck one's heart. That's why it made me wonder why he was suddenly interested in her. He asked me some information about him and even ask me her birthday. It's love who will decide if they are meant to be.

Love is such an unfathomable human mystery. In my Philosophy 1 class, my Philosophy teacher said that love is undefined because if you give a definition of it, it is limited. However, we came up with our class' definition of love: Love is the total giving of self, which until now I can't forget. Every person has its own perspective about love. Some say that Love is blind, Love is painful, Love is sacrifice or even the high school slumbook definition, Love is like a rosary, full of mystery. But despite these differences on the viewpoints on love, I think one is common, that when you love someone, you accept the person as he/she is. You love despite the hurt and pain. You still love though the person don't reciprocate that love. You are happy when he/she is happy even though you are not the source of that happiness.

Sometimes, the one we love is not meant for us. We should accept the truth, even it means pain. However, we should not lose hope in love for love is here waiting. The only key is we should open our heart. We should not be afraid of love, for love is genuine.

waking at dawn, midterms, ID, and the suspect

After last week's early jogging routine, I've developed a habit of waking up very early. Even this week, I always wake up at around 3 or 4 in the morning. I'm earlier than the sun to rise! However, because of the looming typhoon (I'm not updated about that), I can't push through with my jogging exercises. But it did bring good, because instead of jogging, I can now update my forgotten blog.

MIDTERMS

It's time for the mind-cracking Midterm examinations. I need to focus on my review or else bye-bye good grades. Thank God that some exam schedules were moved to next week. I have only two exams, Educational Research and Teaching Strategies in Science. Good luck man sako..

ID VALIDATION

I finally found my matriculation form! I felt like crazy in searching for that piece of document. I thought I already lost it somewhere and even planned for a replacement, but it's only in my wooden box together with other things. Immediately after I found it, I rushed to the Registrar's Office for my ID's validation. Yes! the guard will not anymore reprimand me for that and I can use my library privileges.

Who Drink the Coke? Dorm Case 2007

Sir Ian, the teacher in the dorm, got mad again. It's not about Jeff or rules that were violated, but about his Coke in the refrigerator. When Sir Ian looked for his Coke in the ref, he noticed that it was less already.
Flashback: Three days ago, I got a reasonable little amount in a 1 liter Coke in the ref because I thought it was Joel's. When I asked Joel if it his, he said no. Bang!!!
After learning the incident about Sir Ian's outrage, I said sorry to him during his dinner at Cafe Honce.
Moral: ASK PERMISSION FIRST...

the return of the comeback...

After a week of hiatus in blogging, finally I've time to update my blog....at 5:37 am. I woke up very early this morning, mga 3:40 am yata yun when I checked my cellphone. I planned to do my regular jogging but it it was drizzling outside when I check out of the window.

Too many things happened, too many events transpired within those days, too many feelings suppressed, too many questions unanswered but too many joys to cherish.

Sa susunod na lang ata ko mag-uupdate, its time to prepare for the morning mass. I was assigned to read the 1st reading...

Abangan ang susunod na kabanata....